How would you feel when you grow up as a bright student and then you realize that everything is fine as far as mental health is concerned but you are “physically different”? This is how life changed all of a sudden for Farrukh Naeem, now known as Noshi. She grew up in Shahdara Town, Lahore.
According to a blog published on The Express Tribune website, the 45-year-old trans woman got first position in her class in matriculation with 80 percent marks. Reminiscing her school days, Noshi said she was always better than her classmates. She told that those days tuitions were not so common and pupils had to solve math questions by themselves.
The trans woman said after matriculation she realized that she was never a male, so she decided to inform her parents. She said her family did not accept her and told her to keep quite on this matter. “My father did not allow me to pursue studies any further or even meet friends. I was confined to my house,” she said adding that this attitude towards transgender should change.
After a futile suicide attempt, Noshi left her house and moved to a place where she was accepted.
Here her life entered the phase of a beggar from a genius student. “The weight I had been carrying for several years was finally lifted for here was a community and people for me. The thing that moved me deeply was that I had lost my family, I had lost my childhood and I could not continue education as my father had refused to hand over my degrees and documents.”
She said she had no regrets and she never looked back until she came to know that her mother was ill. She said there was nobody to take care of her as her sisters and brother lived separately. She said she moved back to her house and stayed there with her parents until her mother lived. “My mother’s lower part was paralysed and she was bedridden. I used to wash her clothes and take her to bathroom and would wake up in the middle of the night to give her water. All these days my father never looked at me smilingly, although he was tolerating me for taking care of my mother.”
After death of her mother, Noshi returned to her community where she teaches young trans people and suggests them to work hard and school themselves.